An Explanation

I've made the decision to find my voice. I can't recall when I lost it, but I can tell it's been a while. Lately I've been feeling a bit non-existent. I feel like I can't just be me without anyone there to help me along. I don't feel whole - I'm a girlfriend, a student, and a casual friend, but I'm not a woman yet. Somehow, at 22, I've skipped right past identifying myself, and moved into an academic career and a relationship. I have the things I wanted while I was in high school, but I'm not fulfilled. And of course I'm not, who's ever trusted the hopes and dreams of a teenage girl?

So this is my attempt to pick myself apart and figure out how my mind works. It's my attempt at making myself happy, gaining an identity to grab onto, so that I know what they mean when they say "love yourself first." But first, I'll make a quick introduction.

I'm a 22 year old girl from Canada. I'm a fourth year biology major in university. I'm anxious and awkward, but I'm friendly. I'm one of those animal people without enough willpower to go vegan. I struggle with body image. I can't remember what it feels like to be single. And I'm determined to have a good life.